I am not depressed!
There, I got that
out there. I know my last few posts have
leaned toward the negative side but that does not mean I am depressed. No mother, I am not taking medication. No Aunt Laverne, I am not standing on the
edge of a cliff. I have merely been
sitting at my writing desk trying to pound out my latest story.
I fear that
negativity is a hazard of the job.
I Googled “depressed
writer” and I came up with 7,170,000 hits.
That’s a lot of depression. Seriously!
Ernest Hemingway,
John Keats, Proust and Mark Twain were all rumored to have suffered from
depression. A quick search of “writers
who committed suicide” yielded over 400 names including greats such as Virginia
Woolf, Hunter S. Thompson and Sylvia Plath.
There is quite a
bit of internet space dedicated to why so many writers are susceptible to
depression. Theories from lack of
exercise to lack of a steady income to insupportable loneliness exist. My good friends at Quirk and Quill recently wrote a blog on just this topic.
It is true that I
could stand to exercise more, that I have yet to earn a penny from writing and
my wife would certainly support the fact that I spend too much time alone at
the computer. But I am not depressed.
I have made a
pact to be more positive. I even Googled
‘happy writer’ for advice. Here is what I found:
FINISH YOUR S***! - Chuck
Wendig
Don’t quit your day job -
Nathan Bransford
Okay, so perhaps
the uplifting isn’t so uplifting after all.
My point here
being… writing is full of self-doubt. As
a writer I constantly second guess what I am writing. I accept this fact. It is what I have chosen to do. It doesn’t mean I am moving to Key West to
drink beer and sleep with cats.
In fact, today I
plan to make a large glass of lemonade, turn the baseball game on the radio and
write the next chapter of my novel. Life
is pretty good if you ask me.
Great, upbeat advice, Jeff. :-) And I think I'll have some lemonade as well.
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